angel you know it's not the end

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 00:36:59 GMT

i've moved.

that is the word of god.

Mon, 09 Jun 2003 06:07:48 GMT

school is out. i should be relieved but really i'm not. lunch and beach were fun. chaos and crazy as usual.
went to TN on friday morning. went to the rally set up and the first 15ish minutes of the rally. then a dry ice bomb went off and it got canceled and i was thisclose to becoming reacquainted with my 7th/8th grade pe teacher (now the dean of TN) in a rather unpleasant manner. luckily i had posters to help remove and she had other students to shoo. went to my cousin's graduation. she's going to be a freshman next year. her little brother graduated from kindergarten too. they go to the same (private, religious) school. i was subjected to a sermon on "jesus is our cornerstone" (the motto of the school year). OY VEY. my mother, my aunt and i made it about half way through before we started making sarcastic comments. we tried so hard to be good but it was sooooo hard to take it at all seriously. or even try to be serious to respect the others. the man (priest/preacher/father/whatever you'd like to call him) talked like he was the host of a children's television show. it would have been so much cooler if he'd had a theme song. there was a rendition of "be strong in jesus" (which strikes me as grammatically incorrect or at least awkward) and references to "jesus loves me this i know (because the bible tells me so)". yes. i swear it's true. overall it was mildly disturbing between the architecture metaphors and small children singing about how they are full of sin and need to be forgiven but in many respects highly amusing. i always feel slightly bad finding religion so amusing because i feel like i'm offending someone who does take it seriously but i mean... next year's motto? "his love is forever." THEY MAKE LOGOS!
got up for SAT IIs on saturday. picked up rob. showed up and of course this time everyone decided to show up early. luckily we spotted audrey and jamie in line. took the tests, went for coffee with kristen. came back to pick rob up after her third test. waited for 45 minutes. her class didn't start until 9:20. as in, didn't start filling out the name bubbles. it was the proctor's first time. apparently there was near mutiny in there out of frustration. shopped for caitlin's birthday present. got an adorable planner. ran into cate and jamie. came home. rushed around. set things up for the party. people came. caitlin came. the surprise part went slightly awry but it's much too complex and frustrating to get into here. she seemed to enjoy the party. rob and mere were pretty hyper. esp rob. felt kinda bad for caitlin b/c everyone basically took over the party and made it all about what they wanted to do instead of bother to even consult caitlin about what she might want to do. rob kinda tried to do the same thing while planning but i can keep one person in check. nine is another story. ended up at alix's watching 10 things i hate about you with caitlin and gabby in one room while everyone else watched the ring in the other room. i TOLD them i would not watch that movie. apparently something about "I will not watch The Ring" came out as "oh i totally want to watch the ring with you guys" while "i don't watch scary movies" came out as "i don't watch scary movies except that i will totally make an exception here because everyone else here likes to get the crap scared out of them." hm. or NOT AT ALL. it ended up being pretty amusing after all. rob seemed to kinda want some scary movie/fear sympathy later when we were out in the dark but she wasn't getting it from me and caitlin didn't seem terribly interested either. she also said she didn't want to watch the movie and got ignored. they stayed over. we goofed around all morning. i learned two new card games and relearned an old one. they went home around two and i have done nothing all day. i finished the amber spyglass but it was less than satisfactory because i still can't find my copy of the subtle knife so i had to read the golden compass then skip straight to amber spyglass. luckily this is the second or third time i've read them. i finally filled out that library volunteer form. turning it in tomorrow after fig.
where is everyone tonight?
sweet dreams.

not red but you know red

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 00:57:44 GMT

school doesn't seem worth commenting much on outside of the fact that we got out early and it was lovely. today was hell. tomorrow will be too.
i went to the grocery store with my mother. we purchased almost nothing outside of fruit and vegetables. i saw kevin powers there. i hadn't seen him in a year or so. he's tall now.
we went to rite aid and i got hair dye. number 85, burmese ruby which my mother will not get over. i want to do it now but that would involve dealing with my father and karen. i think i'll do it thursday night. i may convince my mother to try it on a piece in the back tonight though.
i'm hungry and tired and i don't want to work. also, a bit after ten tomorrow a nice hole to fall into would be welcomed.
missing you already

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 04:44:42 GMT

seriously one of the worst days ever

boogerhead!

Sun, 01 Jun 2003 06:58:07 GMT

well i survived the "family bonding" relatively unscathed. my grandmother managed to keep her "why don't you have a boyfriend" comments to a minimum mostly because she bypassed them and went straight to "why aren't you grandkids married yet so i can have great-grandkids?" keep in mind that i'm just 17, jake is 15 1/2 and kimmy is going to be 12 in august. then she was shocked that i didn't plan on being married by the end of undergrad school. yeah married by 22 just isn't on my list of life goals. oh and on the way over there we had more loveliness. we were discussing jake's latest growth spurt (he's 6ft 1 now!) and she was saying that as a general rule, present company (that being me) excluded, kids these days tend to be at least a little bit taller than their parents. so i of course was sitting there going "gee thanks grandma" and then she tells me that "oh no, it's good to be tiny. men like little women." then she went on a bit about someone she knew who was apparently "tiny" like me and how she "looked good in everything. and she always looked so young and men always paid attention to her." um hello? my life isn't all about what men like and want or about impressing them. it was so frustrating. luckily those were just three little moments. the rest wasn't so bad. talked to my uncle (the one not getting married tomorrow) about some college stuff. didn't really want to but i don't mind it from him as much. he knows i get a ton of crap from people so he tries to keep it to a minimum. i very much appreciate that. i went swimming with kimmy for a bit. watched iron chef and some other food network with jake. played a couple of video games. and then the best part! i teased/bullied/coaxed him into getting out his guitar (he's been taking lessons for a few months now) and show me a couple of things. admittedly i sucked and won't remember any of it and it really was only a couple things but it was fun! i had to cut my nails 'cause they were getting in the way and my fingers kinda hurt for a while but it was still cool. so yay for that!
the wedding is tomorrow and i have to... er get to see them all again. at least i've got a cute dress to wear and they'll all be distracted.
sweet dreams.
ps juniper and giggles! i love giggles so much and omg juniper! we have to do that again! we'll find a way!

Sat, 31 May 2003 22:16:35 GMT

well today was not the most productive but it certainly was fun. did a bit of studying but with a long lunch break and then a trip to the mall. oh well, i can study tomorrow night and monday. lunch was fun. quite quite quite fun (hee hee kristen). mmmm. okay. i'm going to stop now. let's just say lunch made my whole weekend.
anyway i'm off for "family bonding". UGH.
toodles.

Fri, 30 May 2003 06:15:06 GMT

in case you couldn't tell, i have a physics test tomorrow. i'm looking forward to it ever so much. today was rather middling. a few great moments and several horrible ones. D is being semi-yucky and that is unfortunately biasing my opinion of the rest of the day. J was lovely but we're moving on past that. we have no choice. ah boys.
sweet dreams.

Fri, 30 May 2003 05:49:16 GMT

i hate physics.
physics hates me.
i hate physics.
physics hates me.
i hate physics.
physics hates me.
i hate physics.

Wed, 28 May 2003 02:51:08 GMT

so this all starts with a discription of today's outfit. white t-shirt, and a short, plaid, pleated skirt. the t-shirt was of no issue at all. the skirt was an entirely different thing. may i just say that it was NOT windy when i left the house this morning or i would have rethought the whole thing. the majority of the day was fine. then leaving school the wind picked up and so did my skirt. but i got things under control and got into the car. then everything explained in the previous entry happened. so while all of that was going on i had the lovely experience of trying to hold my skirt down. really it was fun. that is not the point however. that is just a minor annoyance. well, slightly more major.
the point is i ended up quite torn today. (i'm sure i've said that many a time before but it is true). both the people who helped me (tire guy and AAA guy) were guys. and i was the ditzy blonde with a flat tire and a short skirt on. and i got treated like the ditzy blonde with short skirt on who happened to need help. what is the issue? the issue is i really appreciate the help. and i know if i was a guy i wouldn't have gotten it. or as much of it. those guys were perfectly willing to help me out and be friendly and nice if slightly condencending at times because i'm a little blonde girl. i hate that. i don't want the special help for being a girl. whenever i do, i always also get the "oh she's JUST a girl. of course she needs help" thing which i very much do not appreciate. i hate that i needed help that i was getting for the wrong reasons. neither of those guys acted the same once my mother showed up. they didn't act the same way to her either. i like the help, i just hate the reasons i get it.
/end rant.
reminder: DO NOT WEAR SHORT SKIRTS ON WINDY DAYS.

Wed, 28 May 2003 02:41:09 GMT

today should have sucked. i mean today should have been one of those bad days for the record books. it wasn't though. so we start off nice and early as always and in my grogginess and general uncoolness i managed to hit a curb this morning rather hard. yes yes. but it gets worse. so my car was making a bit of a funny noise but i figure hey, i hit a curb, some funny noises are probably in order. make it to school where second period i had a lovely math test. or not. then on to tutorial where i accomplished nothing but was terribly amused by ms. bunch. then onto french where i accomplished nothing and wasn't really amused by ms. bunch. the highlight of my french day was listening to her talk to the woman in france and understanding enough to make smart ass remarks about what she was saying. this moment was somewhat undermined by the fact that everyone around me was either not listening to the conversation or didn't understand it so they didn't get my remarks. ah well. lunch was okay. the passing the torch thing. it was a good idea but it felt so rushed. fun to watch though. then drama which pretty much sucked as usual. while i like mr. friedman a lot, i hate him so much right now. SO MUCH. and then the real fun started. so i left school and my car's still making the funny noise but whatever, it didn't seem too bad. then i got on the freeway and as i sped up that damn noise kept getting louder. then as i passed over an uneven spot the car hit it funny and did a bang thing. immediately after this the noise died down a bit. yay! i thought. a bang messed it up and now another bang has pushed everything back into place. i thought wrong. oh did i ever. the noise started getting much worse and now the car was vibrating in a rather unsettling manner. it was pulling a little but nothing worth noticing because the road i was on isn't flat. so then the noise just continued and worsened as did the shaking. i decided to pull off. the nearest exit was alameda de las pulgas but i don't know anything there so i decided to go to csm because at this point i had determined that i was calling my mommy and she was coming to get me. she knows where csm is, i know the area better, plus i know there's shade and a parking lot. so i went up the hill, the whole way telling my car that it had just a bit further to go and to please not explode, stall or injure anyone and/or thing. got parked. called my mom. wandered out of car to figure out what the hell was wrong b/c now a metal bit hitting metal noise had been added to the previous set. oh boy. oh boy oh boy oh boy. my right back tire was SO DEAD. like VISIBLE rips and off the rim half way. seriously there were two huge rips. one was like 3/4 - 1 in and the other was 2 1/2 in easily. so i was thrilled to be alive after seeing this. my mommy of course said that she will be coming to get me. i called robin to pass the time so we chatted for a bit then i called triple a. very friendly. i was scared they would be cranky or ask me questions about the car that i didn't know the answer to (basically ANY question). but they didn't and they said they'd send a guy out. so i called rob back and we chatted until the guy arrived and started to change the tire. then he discovered that the rims were added after and weren't the originals for the car so his rim remover thingy wouldn't work. neither would mine as it was the one for the original. things happened and all was worked out. my mom arrived at some point in there. so we went to sears and got my tire replaced and i finally arrived home 6:30ish.
that was my day. i have more to discuss but this is already quite long so it shall be a separate entry.
all in all that should have been just miserable but it really wasn't. if you just looked at my tire you would think today had been the worst day of my life but it wasn't that bad. so yay for that.
i hope you all had actively wonderful days.

say i wanted to make you believe my neighbor is a slut

Tue, 27 May 2003 01:18:15 GMT

who eats at 5 o'clock? we've eaten progressively earlier every night this weekend. and while we're at it, salmon loaf? SALMON LOAF? as if the fish isn't bad enough, it's been put into loaf form. i boycotted and had corn and asparagus instead. i'm still hungry but can't find anything non fish and non loaf to consume. oh well. at least she's not bugged me too much about doing homework this weekend. which i of course haven't done. today was homework day and have you looked outside? of course nothing productive was done today.
i kept hoping someone would drive up to my house to drag me away to do something fun today. everytime a car went by (and this is a frequent occurance) i kept hoping i would hear it stop and people would get out and start yelling up for me to come out with them. i was sorely disappointed.
it was beautiful out.
this entry looks like i'm in a terrible mood but really i'm not. the end of the weekend has just been a bit of a let down when compared to the beginning. nothing bad has happened, it's just that nothing good has happened. it's just been dull.
anyway. i'm off to play bookworm. it's my new addiction. i'm determined to beat jacky to becoming head librarian.
sweet dreams.

Mon, 26 May 2003 17:29:24 GMT

must do all homework early today so i can do something outside. why on the one day i had planned to do all my homework does the weather clear up? cruel i tell you.
-ch. 31 notes for physics
-dittos for physics
-english from weds.
-review problems for math
-fill out orange sheet for ms. cowey

is robinson collecting the packet on wednesday? i don't know what's supposed to be in it...
okay. plan is to finish by two and then do something fun and sun related.
toodles.

Mon, 26 May 2003 05:58:00 GMT

i have an old cookbook that sometimes spells cookie "cooky".
this bothers me. i don't know why. it's too sticky that way. there's something else about it that bothers me but i can't quite place it.

Mon, 26 May 2003 05:52:47 GMT

today was boring and tomorrow i have to do research for that bleeping history project. blech.
sweet dreams.

to fall asleep together

Sun, 25 May 2003 09:18:39 GMT

another wonderful evening. two starbuck's beverages, two bathroom trips, one safeway trip, two sticks of gum, half a bottle of water, run ins with two different sets of friends, one beach, six hours and every conceivable topic of conversation later rob has gone home.
i can't wait for summer. we're going to do this way more often. and tahoe is going to be fab.
sweet dreams.

wimp

Sun, 25 May 2003 01:16:06 GMT

last night was fun. it was wet and cold out but for once i wasn't cold. everything was right last night. it was perfect.
today was fun too. i think ms. bunch would be horrified to know that the majority of our scenes were written five minutes before they were filmed. but we did it. seven minutes almost exactly and it only took four hours to film. may we never have to do it again.
i finished the book today tiffany. it really was lovely (no pun intended).
i want cinnamon bears.
sweet dreams.

A person shouldn't believe in an ism.

Sat, 24 May 2003 01:53:37 GMT

i just figured out how to use the call waiting on my phone! thank you so much to ferris bueller's day off. this is probably the only thing i've learned in ms. leap's class this year.
today was really good. sun and short classes always make for a good day.
i keep remembering that we have monday off. it's great. everytime it's a complete surprise and just makes my day.
actually have plans tonight. yay for leaving my house! plans tomorrow too but of the academic nature. oh well, still out of my house.
toodles.

i wanna be an inventor

Wed, 21 May 2003 02:29:35 GMT

another beautiful day. that went by while i was in school. sigh. just a little bit longer.
public humilation is just not my thing. drama today really pointed that out to me. once again. just a little bit longer.
i'm going to swim tomorrow. i can't wait. i'm so ready for summer.
off to stare out the window.
sweet dreams.

i need some more of those blue things!

Tue, 20 May 2003 02:51:26 GMT

it is really disconcerting to pick up the phone and hear your mother's voice on the other end when you were under the impression that she was downstairs in the kitchen or watching tv. REALLY WEIRD.
today was dull beyond your wildest dreams. though that's rather obvious i suppose. just dull. lovely weather but i wasn't out in it. instead i stuffed envelopes and labeled them all lunch. party!
i want to be at the beach. everyone else is. stupid school. but only a few more days and then i can call people up and drag them with me and we'll have fun. and not do homework. i can't wait.
lovely evenings to everyone.
sweet dreams.

the catbird seat

Mon, 19 May 2003 04:07:10 GMT

the bathing suit expedition was remarkably painless. just a couple hours to find one. then i came home and attempted to make some sense out of the mess that currently overwhelms my room. boxes everywhere! god forbid i should have to get up sometime in the night. i'd probably kill myself. i put away all my clothes and my books and i organized all my magazines and put those away too. fixed my stereo up. sorted out a bunch of clothes to be given away. put a bunch of stuff into a box to be stored somewhere. and then i did laundry. it was quite a chore. honestly, this new washing machine requires a ph d in button pushing. i've never seen a machine with so simple a task and so very many buttons. and then for my ditz moment of the day: i got so distracted by all the buttons that i forgot to put soap in. luckily when i went downstairs my mother asked me if i had figured out where the soap went (yes it, bleach, and fabric softener have special places to go. no just tossing it in.) and crisis was averted.
wasn't the weather just lovely today? the beach was crowded and the surf was actually good for once. it isn't usually when there's nice weather. there are two bonfires tonight. i wonder who has a bonfire on a sunday night. oh well. gives me something to watch.
i'm going to curl up in bed and read. or maybe just daydream. either way, i'm off.
good night.
sweet dreams

metranome and toe tapping. intense toe tapping.

Sun, 18 May 2003 18:16:36 GMT

i am going bathing suit shopping today. this is never a good exercise for my self confidence. at least i will be getting out of the house.
i hope the weather stays nice.
have a nice day everyone.
toodles.

cough cough cough cough cough

Wed, 14 May 2003 04:14:43 GMT

drama was miserable today. everything else was okay but drama was miserable. i hate this project so much. so so so so so much. poster making was amusing.
there was one bonfire last night. none on sunday night. the surfers started one this afternoon but it's gone out now. i like watching them. the fires that is not the surfers. well actually i take that back. i like watching the surfers too.
i find that when my nose is stuffed up i cease to think for the most part.
good night.
sweet dreams.

nacho nirvana

Mon, 12 May 2003 04:06:09 GMT

went to see mousetrap today. quite enjoyable despite knowing the ending. in many ways that made it more amusing. i haven't done anything else today.
how is tomorrow monday? it just doesn't seem right.
good night.
sweet dreams.

My endeavors today would have tried the dust allergies of a saint.

Sun, 11 May 2003 04:53:51 GMT

i have somehow managed to accumulate sixteen purses/bags. SIXTEEN. how did this happen? when? where have they all come from? that's practically a purse for every year of my life.
in other news
a bonfire update. last night when i went to bed (shamefully early i might add) there were two bonfires. when i woke up at 1:30am there were about six. once again, where have they all come from? when i woke again (yes, this does beg the question 'why does this girl wake up so much during the night?' i'm sorry to tell you that i have no answer for you but you are in good company. i had no answer for my mother either.) at 3:30 am one of the fires was still going. tonight we're up to a total of five plus a mystery white light that has since disappeared.
oh no! i just accidentally killed a spider! it had been lurking in the right sink in my bathroom so i'd been using the left but it hadn't been there all day today so i went to use the right side. i didn't turn the light on and didn't see that he was there. so i turned the water on and he floated up. oh i feel terrible now. he was a mean looking thing but still. plus i did an "oh oh oh" scream sort of thing and ran into my mother's room. i just barely remembered to turn the water off. and i wonder why my mother teases me... i would tease me too.
today was an ikea excursion. i've got a new desk (it's tall! i have to sit with two pillows on the chair for the old desk.), a new window shade, a magnet board thing, and a nifty beach mat. the desk is all nice and set up and i've got the phone table next to it. this room is starting to look like someone actually lives here.
one last random note. i have the niftiest phone! dark red, old-fashioned rotary phone! it takes forever to dial but it's so pretty!
this was a very parenthetical entry.
good night.
sweet dreams.

Sat, 10 May 2003 04:53:08 GMT

there are only two bonfires tonight. i wonder whose they are. nothing much of importance has happened. aps are over. yay for that. went to the mall. got mom's present. accidentally got body wash instead of lotion. oh well, it still smells good.
going to ikea tomorrow with mom. then mousetrap on sunday. hopefully a good weekend. better than last at least. maybe bathing suit shopping?
this is boring. i have nothing witty or eloquent to say so i'm going to go now.
i wonder where my cat has gone...
good night.
sweet dreams.